Writing and Stuff

I wish I was a better writer. When I do actually manage to write something, it's not too bad, but I just cannot get myself to write. It's hard to even get myself to WANT to write. I'm terrified for my Creative Writing class this semester. I don't want to do terribly. And I know I'm going to have to write poetry and I cannot write poetry and I'm just scared. One thing I am pretty good at, I think, is "creative non-fiction." Like a blog basically. Or essays. When I write about myself, I'm somehow able to just crank something out and have it be good. Hopefully I'll get to do some of that in this class, and if it goes well, I think I'll try taking the Nonfiction Creative Writing class.

And kind of along those same lines, but maybe not really, we'll see where this goes, I wish I was a more diverse reader. I pretty much only read fiction except for the occasional memoir or book of essays, and books assigned for class. I hardly ever read nonfiction or even historical fiction. It's just really hard for me and I can't get myself into it. Hopefully this will change as I grow.... I don't know. (Joe, if you're reading this, which I'm almost certain you are, this is my not-so-subtle way of saying I'm sorry it's so hard getting me to read books to loan me. I want to read them but I always get sidetracked by something else that I've had my eye on for a while. I'm hoping that, after my war and literature class this semester, I'll actually really want to read your books. I promise I will give them a chance. Please don't hate me. :/ )

While I'm talking about stuff that I hate about myself, I was thinking about it the other day, and I realised that I would really love to teach at a University someday...but I honestly do not think I am smart enough.

Ugh I just can't wait to be back at school already.

Today I bought a $6 lip gloss just because it was called "Amsterdam." I may have a problem.

Days Until I Go Back to School: 10 (WHAT OH MY GOD) (YAY)